stop...start

-stop spending time with the wrong people

become the person you want to hang out with

-stop running from your problems

become clear 

-stop lying to yourself

become honest with yourself 

-stop putting your own needs on the back burner

realize you are the most important person in your life

-stop trying to be someone you're not

you are essential, be yourself

-stop trying to hold onto the past

let it GO

-stop being scared to make a mistake

make a mistake, learn 

-stop trying to buy happiness

passion, joy, laughter, all free

-stop being idle

take action

-stop thinking your not ready

you are right here and right now Ready, take that first step

-stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn't work

now is the time  

-stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself

who wants to hear someone who has a case of the "WHAwhaWha's"

-stop holding grudges
let it go

-stop wasting time explaining yourself to others
let who you are speak louder than your words

-stop overlooking the beauty of small moments
take a moment and look around right now, beauty is alive all around you

-stop tyring to make things perfect
if it's not broken, why fix it?

-stop following the path of least resistance
leap

-stop trying to be everything to everyone
you already are

-stop worrying
remove the worry with the truth 

-stop focusing on what you don't want to happen
focus on the desire, the 'want' to happen 

-stop being ungrateful
Be grateful

xoxo

KnM

This is serious business people, seriously

Serious Business to me is the fact I have been so outrageously busy I have not been able to keep up with Jones'.....not even the Kardashians. It has been a whirlwind of crazy newness all around me and as my life.

I started to claim my desire, my wants, my needs, my hopes, and dreams around my birthday in September. I created a list of 31 things that I wanted to create in my 31st year, and hot damn, I am halfway there. What a trip. And some were ridiculous requests...gas prices to go down for example, and let me tell you, saving 35 cents per gallon is a huge blessing. It happened fast and i like it.

I started a new career in October. And i am really really stoked for what is revealing itself to me through this new path. I started working with some of the most amazingly genuine, creative people I have ever met, and I have met some people in my short time. These peeps inspire me everyday to be greater, to be more and more myself. To never fall into the shadow but explode into the light. It is humbling. It is what I have been looking for, and I know I am getting ready to launch into another epic adventure.

I am also creeping on a year in Southern California. I don't know what I think about this. It seems time has been a very intense and very fast. There are days I just can't stop smiling because of the joy and brilliance of my life here, and some days I cry myself to sleep because I ache for Portland. I miss the smell of the fresh rain, the laughter of my friends as we celebrate at the Horse Brass, the music in my ears from a show at Crystal Ballroom, the feel of a used book from Powell's, tator tots, independent thinkers, shades of green, bridges, my sister, my beloveds. I am everyday grateful for the life I led in P-Town, and even the shitty days were good days.

Life here is good. I have shaped into a better person, a greater woman, a more intense driver, and have fallen in love with a small group of extraordinary people. I am deeply in love with my family from another clan (there is no rhyme for this statement, usually i would write sista from anotha mista, or brotha from anotha motha, but the Murray's truly are my family from another Clan! that's truth!)

Life is just different. and with the difference you realize what you didn't like about the previous and what you miss. The feeling in my heart these past few days has been a deep sense of 'missing.' I have everything I need in my life, I am just missing people, places, and things. I need to hug my mom and dad soon. I need to toast my sisters. I need to laugh with B.  I need to walk a trail with Traci. I need to cook an epic meal and drink deliciousness with Jenn and Jeremie. I need to meet up with Valerie and discuss the next big adventure. I need to watch Dexter with Erin, Rob and Brody. I need to watch hockey with Hawker. MNF with Murr and Roberto. I need to randomly fall in love.  these are just a few of my favorite things. And the truth is, it is at my fingertips.

This past year has been moments upon moments of treasuring people in my life. I FUCKING LOVE my friends and family. if you don't feel my love for you, I am sorry, but this is a public announcement that I LOVE YOU. you make me tick. you make me want to be greater in the world. you make me taste the deliciousness of the world. if it wasn't for you, who would i be? really?

Being the person I am, and the way i operate i need a list. A new list of my next 31 things, 31 flavors for the next few months to set my life up for more enriching and 'off the hook' experiences....here i go

1. MORE NEW MUSIC, i am in love with music, and i am in need of some new tunes.
2. new clothes, or new to me, wowsa I'm not in the land of layers anymore, time to adjust accordingly.
3. trip to Washington and Oregon. (i claim right here and right now i will be in Portland by February!!!)
4. tattoo continuation
5. communication with friends
6. forgiveness
7. action towards independent living
8. passport
9. be purposeful in my choices
10. engage my artistic nature
11. create a new smell, patchouli might be retiring
12. self care
13. receive the gifts people want to give me
14. spend more time in silence
15. have more faith in my life
16. allow the lessons to be easy and allow for the lessons to be fun
17. except the fact i am greater than i beleive myself to be
18. become more vulnerable
19. read a book
20. listen
21. realize when to shut up
22. allow others to be whatever they need to be, do whatever they need to do
23. spend more time with people that worth my time
24. create a rad understanding of what is next
25. wake up refreshed, renewed, and ready
26. open up
27. step up my game
28. become active in creating a world that works for veryone
29. let go
30. be remarkable
31. be myself

feels good to be clear........ peace to you......and remember I FUCKING LOVE YOU

KnM

Deep Thoughts by K-Dawg

The formula for a grand summer is to conclude the season with a celebration.  To look back at the last 3 months and celebrate the successes, the creativity, the travels, the manifestation of spring seeds, and reflect on the new faces residing in your life. the excitement of what was, excitement of what is, and excitement of what is to be.

And as we step into the fall, the month of September especially, I notice that I am placing my thoughts into remembering and acknowledging life more than any other season. I turn 31 this month, a day that makes me so grateful for my family, the love and support of my parents, the brilliance of my friends.  

 The trees becoming vibrant in color, seeds are being planted to create another crop of deliciousness.

I have two couples in my life, with every one being super important in my life, that are celebrating their wedding anniversary on my birthday. It gives me permission to celebrate the love, the union, and the example of pure commitment. These 2 couples are inspiring and I am consistently and constantly inspired by who they are in the world and who they all are in my world.  And a wack-a-doo coincidence. Many blessings and love to these remarkable peeps.

The anniversary of 9/11/01. 10 years. First of all, time went insanely fast. Secondly, I am not acknowledging this day as a day of terrorism, not even for a moment. It was an alarm in my life, an alarm in my world. To awaken from the dream of ignorance of global matters, and become educated on what really is happening on the global platform. Saddened by the event, for sure, no question, I am also pissed off that we as individuals, communities, governments, as global citizens spend more time looking at the problem and not at the solution. What can we do to start healing, what can we do to start educating the cool kids growing up today, 9/11 being an event that happened as they were still playing with Barbies, My little Pony's and having scheduled naps. How do we educate this generation in knowing that attacks and war are NOT the norm, especially when thats all they experienced thus far in life.......so my request is we shift. Create a new today, Heal the past  so we can start living for today.




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take a moment and really grasp this concept!

So now for my birthday list 

#31 things#

(you didn't ask, but I think you may agree I am worth it, as you are worth it!)

1. to have the most epic, creative, fun, joyful, job that allows me to be me, and I am able to inspire the masses.

2. a few live shows that are worth my time

3. daily belly laughing

4. a trip to portlandia

5. a McGuirk 5 reunion

6. Gas Prices to reduce significantly

7. complete integrity and authenticity

8. camping on the beach

9. wake up every morning with purpose and passion

10. remarkable hike 

11. delicious cup of coffee with a delicious conversation

12. for my life to reveal its beauty and brilliance as me, through me. 

13. to forgive myself for the past, all of the past, and to begin to create a culture of compassion and creativity as a norm in all i do. 

14. to fall deeply, madly in love with people. the ones in my life now and the ones that will soon be entering it.

15. sushi, a lot of sushi

16. to not be defensive and fear conversations. to understand that every interaction in my life is a blessing. That truly everyone is conspiring on my behalf for a richer, healthier, loving life. 

17. to plant a tree for Sam in my parents new yard

18. to accept a compliment

19. to become an oxygen lover, and have a new sense of American Spirit. 

20. become a local

21. have all different crews meet and create a larger crew

22. tattoo extension

23. allow the gifts to flow in my life. I am ready to receive.

24. pair of orange TOMS....its time i become hip

25. passport

26. space to entertain, create, cook, laugh

27. be a witness to my friends dreams come true, and in return allow them to witness mine. 

28. endless supply supporter

29. become involved with 2012 campaign, focusing primarily on the new voters

30. bills paid on time, and have a rhythm 

31. to fall more in love 

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NOW that is what I am talking about!!!!!

Happy September Peeps!!!

xoxo KnM

shifting into new gears

it has been a trip these last few weeks. the days melting and merging into one another. i have traveled across 4 states, thousands of miles, camping in the mountains for 9 days and now headed out on another adventure Sunday for yet again another week. Seems it has been a fun filled summer, and that is true, it is however been exhausting. Pouring energy into adventures that have given me more reason to be alone. to focus on my life, my needs, my life.

A year ago I would have jumped on any chance to have endless adventures and would have expressed endless excitement for exploring the world around me. Now these days all i want is, normalcy.

Normalcy for me would be routine. Work. Play. Friends. Family. Laughter. My day to be filled with what needs to be done, getting it done, and the joys of surprise wiggled in. I would have a sense of being busy and feeling delighted every night with what i accomplished.

Boredom doesn't work for me, and routine can create a sense of boredom, so I re-define my definition. I want to be creatively challenged. To feel inspired with what I do, and knowing what i am doing inspires not just others but ME. I want to get out in the world feeling purpose driven and creatively inspired.

This is what I am about. This is how I want my life to be seen by others. This is my mantra, the song of my heart. 
-be on purpose with everything you do. 
-forgive yourself for being hurtful, careless towards others and especially yourself. no need to change the people around you, focus on you. 
-call a friend or make it a point to reach out when your having a dark night of the soul
-surround yourself with people that 'have your back' kinda love 
-trust yourself, that is the only validation needed 
-ask for help
-laugh out loud
-be vulnerable 
-make new friends but keep the old....no one is silver or gold, we just are.
-realize that we have no expiration date. It is a constant reality that you have this moment, this moment alone. 
This is my to be list, formally my to do list.
-i am loving, living, and thriving.
-i have an amazingly delicious job, being myself, creative and brilliant
-i love being with my friends that lift me up, support me, and respect me, and I am the mirror 
-"got your back" love is a norm
-seeing my mom and dad and my beautiful sisters at least 4 times a year. 
-living in a place that is creative, inspiring, spacious, and welcoming
-always taking care of my needs and heart
-come from a place of compassion, knowing nothing is broken, so nothing needs to be fixed.
-greet every morning with a HUGE thank you and falling asleep in a grateful way.


And so it is, and so i let it be, and so it is.

be good to you today, and while your at it, be good to you everyday.

KnM

a Kristin fortune cookie for you

remembering that no matter where i am, no matter how I feel, no matter if i believe there is not enough for me, i can be reminded it is all bullshit. I am here on purpose. you are here on purpose, and we get to choooooose to be in love!

good day of love to you
KnM

check in

been awhile.

had so much to say and yet, so little. I am happy, in a calm, serene way.  Some days i want to crawl in a ball and be alone, surrendering into my day, and being quiet in my joy. Other days I want to groove like a soul train dancer, laughing a massive belly laugh and engaging with whomever I can.

the soundtrack has changed more than i could have imagined. live music serves my soul more than anything else, It always has been where i find myself to be most alive, most happy. and instead of stadiums or clubs, i am enjoying music in living rooms and cafes. connecting with the music, the people, the environment on a first name basis. High fives and side hugs. Connecting and contact sharing. It's as if I was made to network, who knew?

the people have become silhouettes of people I once had cups or pints of life with. the qualities of the crew in my life has shifted from friends of my youth growing into peeps that i will have in my future. i am creating a posse, a crew, an entourage of absolute potential. And I'm being mirrored in every conversation, called to be a greater better me, and above all i am being loved unconditionally.

the lesson has been amazing. no matter where i go, there i am. the 'everythings' of life are always present and that is incredible and interesting to take a bite out of.  my parents will still be my parents, all issues and love will always be until they change. my sisters will always be my sisters. available and willing, loving and compassionate.

the brilliance when i got it, i GOT it. and what a Got that was and is that i Got, hahah.
---Some people only know how to say Yes, they live from a place of Yes. Always wanting to serve. Then there are people that don't know how to HEAR no. They expect to always get and have and hear what they want with minimal compromise, and massive manipulation. SO i am here to hear what needs to be heard and be clear when I say yes or when i need to say no.

so i am discovering my passionate truth, and so far so good.

KnM

Location! Location!! Location!!!

doesn't matter where i am, or where you are. we are, where we are, and it's perfect!!!-KnM