it has been a trip these last few weeks. the days melting and merging into one another. i have traveled across 4 states, thousands of miles, camping in the mountains for 9 days and now headed out on another adventure Sunday for yet again another week. Seems it has been a fun filled summer, and that is true, it is however been exhausting. Pouring energy into adventures that have given me more reason to be alone. to focus on my life, my needs, my life.
A year ago I would have jumped on any chance to have endless adventures and would have expressed endless excitement for exploring the world around me. Now these days all i want is, normalcy.
Normalcy for me would be routine. Work. Play. Friends. Family. Laughter. My day to be filled with what needs to be done, getting it done, and the joys of surprise wiggled in. I would have a sense of being busy and feeling delighted every night with what i accomplished.
Boredom doesn't work for me, and routine can create a sense of boredom, so I re-define my definition. I want to be creatively challenged. To feel inspired with what I do, and knowing what i am doing inspires not just others but ME. I want to get out in the world feeling purpose driven and creatively inspired.
This is what I am about. This is how I want my life to be seen by others. This is my mantra, the song of my heart.
-be on purpose with everything you do.
-forgive yourself for being hurtful, careless towards others and especially yourself. no need to change the people around you, focus on you.
-call a friend or make it a point to reach out when your having a dark night of the soul
-surround yourself with people that 'have your back' kinda love
-trust yourself, that is the only validation needed
-ask for help
-laugh out loud
-be vulnerable
-make new friends but keep the old....no one is silver or gold, we just are.
-realize that we have no expiration date. It is a constant reality that you have this moment, this moment alone.
This is my to be list, formally my to do list.
-i am loving, living, and thriving.
-i have an amazingly delicious job, being myself, creative and brilliant
-i love being with my friends that lift me up, support me, and respect me, and I am the mirror
-"got your back" love is a norm
-seeing my mom and dad and my beautiful sisters at least 4 times a year.
-living in a place that is creative, inspiring, spacious, and welcoming
-always taking care of my needs and heart
-come from a place of compassion, knowing nothing is broken, so nothing needs to be fixed.
-greet every morning with a HUGE thank you and falling asleep in a grateful way.
And so it is, and so i let it be, and so it is.
be good to you today, and while your at it, be good to you everyday.
KnM
Friday, July 29, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
a Kristin fortune cookie for you
remembering that no matter where i am, no matter how I feel, no matter if i believe there is not enough for me, i can be reminded it is all bullshit. I am here on purpose. you are here on purpose, and we get to choooooose to be in love!
good day of love to you
KnM
good day of love to you
KnM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
check in
been awhile.
had so much to say and yet, so little. I am happy, in a calm, serene way. Some days i want to crawl in a ball and be alone, surrendering into my day, and being quiet in my joy. Other days I want to groove like a soul train dancer, laughing a massive belly laugh and engaging with whomever I can.
the soundtrack has changed more than i could have imagined. live music serves my soul more than anything else, It always has been where i find myself to be most alive, most happy. and instead of stadiums or clubs, i am enjoying music in living rooms and cafes. connecting with the music, the people, the environment on a first name basis. High fives and side hugs. Connecting and contact sharing. It's as if I was made to network, who knew?
the people have become silhouettes of people I once had cups or pints of life with. the qualities of the crew in my life has shifted from friends of my youth growing into peeps that i will have in my future. i am creating a posse, a crew, an entourage of absolute potential. And I'm being mirrored in every conversation, called to be a greater better me, and above all i am being loved unconditionally.
the lesson has been amazing. no matter where i go, there i am. the 'everythings' of life are always present and that is incredible and interesting to take a bite out of. my parents will still be my parents, all issues and love will always be until they change. my sisters will always be my sisters. available and willing, loving and compassionate.
the brilliance when i got it, i GOT it. and what a Got that was and is that i Got, hahah.
---Some people only know how to say Yes, they live from a place of Yes. Always wanting to serve. Then there are people that don't know how to HEAR no. They expect to always get and have and hear what they want with minimal compromise, and massive manipulation. SO i am here to hear what needs to be heard and be clear when I say yes or when i need to say no.
so i am discovering my passionate truth, and so far so good.
KnM
the soundtrack has changed more than i could have imagined. live music serves my soul more than anything else, It always has been where i find myself to be most alive, most happy. and instead of stadiums or clubs, i am enjoying music in living rooms and cafes. connecting with the music, the people, the environment on a first name basis. High fives and side hugs. Connecting and contact sharing. It's as if I was made to network, who knew?
the people have become silhouettes of people I once had cups or pints of life with. the qualities of the crew in my life has shifted from friends of my youth growing into peeps that i will have in my future. i am creating a posse, a crew, an entourage of absolute potential. And I'm being mirrored in every conversation, called to be a greater better me, and above all i am being loved unconditionally.
the lesson has been amazing. no matter where i go, there i am. the 'everythings' of life are always present and that is incredible and interesting to take a bite out of. my parents will still be my parents, all issues and love will always be until they change. my sisters will always be my sisters. available and willing, loving and compassionate.
the brilliance when i got it, i GOT it. and what a Got that was and is that i Got, hahah.
---Some people only know how to say Yes, they live from a place of Yes. Always wanting to serve. Then there are people that don't know how to HEAR no. They expect to always get and have and hear what they want with minimal compromise, and massive manipulation. SO i am here to hear what needs to be heard and be clear when I say yes or when i need to say no.
so i am discovering my passionate truth, and so far so good.
KnM
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Location! Location!! Location!!!
doesn't matter where i am, or where you are. we are, where we are, and it's perfect!!!-KnM
Friday, May 20, 2011
Life's Fondue
days and weeks have melted into a big heaping bowl of processed cheese fondue. the kind that sticks to the pot, the roof of your mouth, and never seems to keep its heat. I'm dipping possibilities into processes. seems the desire i have for sustenance is not giving me much substance. or maybe substance for sustenance. either way I am experiencing a feeling that I am all to familiar with. Emotions and feelings that i wish to experience as a memory.
a dark day of the soul, nothing to worry about, or concern myself with. These are the days that lead to absolute Light and Discovery. These are the moments that I will look back on and be grateful that I had the courage to be real with myself and feel what needs to be felt. Sometimes the fear, lack, disappointment shows up in our life so we can get clear on what we really want. I change that statement....Its not sometimes its all the time. All experiences give us the absolute clarity to see what we can have, create, embody. Seems i have put on my foggy goggles today.
so what to do now?
be quiet...unplug...listen...and allow the glory of this life reveal itself to me. laugh...feel...cry...and allow the true essence of who I am become more alive. create...evaluate...demonstrate... and allow the brilliance that I am wake the F up. call...text...update...and allow it all to be from and for Love.
this is my blah blah blah blog for the day.....
maybe its time to find a new fondue recipe?
keep dipping
KnM
a dark day of the soul, nothing to worry about, or concern myself with. These are the days that lead to absolute Light and Discovery. These are the moments that I will look back on and be grateful that I had the courage to be real with myself and feel what needs to be felt. Sometimes the fear, lack, disappointment shows up in our life so we can get clear on what we really want. I change that statement....Its not sometimes its all the time. All experiences give us the absolute clarity to see what we can have, create, embody. Seems i have put on my foggy goggles today.
so what to do now?
be quiet...unplug...listen...and allow the glory of this life reveal itself to me. laugh...feel...cry...and allow the true essence of who I am become more alive. create...evaluate...demonstrate... and allow the brilliance that I am wake the F up. call...text...update...and allow it all to be from and for Love.
this is my blah blah blah blog for the day.....
maybe its time to find a new fondue recipe?
keep dipping
KnM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
hungry
hungry for...
1. attention
2. love
3. food
4. friendship
5. interaction
6. communication
7. compassion
8. gratitude
9. rhythm
10. sass
11. surprises
12. flirting
13. conversation
14. excitement
15. satisfaction
16. fulfillment
17. music
18. laughter
19. creativity
20. results
21. release
22. forgiveness
23. healing
24. education
25. purpose
26. abundance
27. massage
28. prosperity
29. beauty
30. family
Is what I'm hungry for available as a combo? am i hungry because I feel empty? experiencing gluttony?
or is it what I have, so desiring it makes sense because i Know it's available?
we all feel hunger, physically, mentally, spiritually....the pains can cause us to become cranky, loopy, low energy, silly, intolerable.
my mission- Feed My Soul....Feed My Mind....Feed My Body.....
starting to feel full
KnM
Monday, May 16, 2011
what if....
what if you won the lottery today, what would you do first? who would you call first?
what if you ran into your favorite musician in the post office, what would you say?
what if you happened upon a lost earring, how would you feel?
what if you fell in love, deeper than ever before, with the perfect person tonight?
what if you are forgiven for all your mistakes of the past?
what if no one ever made an assumption about you, your life, your feelings?
what if you had the most amazing singing voice?
what if you could cook a meal that would have your fellow patrons at the table praise your talent?
what if you could travel anywhere you wanted, whenever you wanted? where would you go?
what if you started that business you have been dreaming of?
what if you smiled and they smiled back?
what if you never needed to know the answers to the questions?
what if you woke every morning kissing life right on the mouth?
what if you made things happen just by thinking they would?
what if you forgave yourself?
what if you asked another how they were, and you cared about the answer?
what if you were healthy?
what if you had discovered a genie in a bottle, and you were granted 3 wishes?
what if you were loved no matter what?
what if your heart didn't feel pain anymore?
what if you sang your heart out at karaoke night?
what if you could have no fears?
what if you allowed good to happen?
what if ....
living in the question
KnM
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