Deep Thoughts by K-Dawg

The formula for a grand summer is to conclude the season with a celebration.  To look back at the last 3 months and celebrate the successes, the creativity, the travels, the manifestation of spring seeds, and reflect on the new faces residing in your life. the excitement of what was, excitement of what is, and excitement of what is to be.

And as we step into the fall, the month of September especially, I notice that I am placing my thoughts into remembering and acknowledging life more than any other season. I turn 31 this month, a day that makes me so grateful for my family, the love and support of my parents, the brilliance of my friends.  

 The trees becoming vibrant in color, seeds are being planted to create another crop of deliciousness.

I have two couples in my life, with every one being super important in my life, that are celebrating their wedding anniversary on my birthday. It gives me permission to celebrate the love, the union, and the example of pure commitment. These 2 couples are inspiring and I am consistently and constantly inspired by who they are in the world and who they all are in my world.  And a wack-a-doo coincidence. Many blessings and love to these remarkable peeps.

The anniversary of 9/11/01. 10 years. First of all, time went insanely fast. Secondly, I am not acknowledging this day as a day of terrorism, not even for a moment. It was an alarm in my life, an alarm in my world. To awaken from the dream of ignorance of global matters, and become educated on what really is happening on the global platform. Saddened by the event, for sure, no question, I am also pissed off that we as individuals, communities, governments, as global citizens spend more time looking at the problem and not at the solution. What can we do to start healing, what can we do to start educating the cool kids growing up today, 9/11 being an event that happened as they were still playing with Barbies, My little Pony's and having scheduled naps. How do we educate this generation in knowing that attacks and war are NOT the norm, especially when thats all they experienced thus far in life.......so my request is we shift. Create a new today, Heal the past  so we can start living for today.




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take a moment and really grasp this concept!

So now for my birthday list 

#31 things#

(you didn't ask, but I think you may agree I am worth it, as you are worth it!)

1. to have the most epic, creative, fun, joyful, job that allows me to be me, and I am able to inspire the masses.

2. a few live shows that are worth my time

3. daily belly laughing

4. a trip to portlandia

5. a McGuirk 5 reunion

6. Gas Prices to reduce significantly

7. complete integrity and authenticity

8. camping on the beach

9. wake up every morning with purpose and passion

10. remarkable hike 

11. delicious cup of coffee with a delicious conversation

12. for my life to reveal its beauty and brilliance as me, through me. 

13. to forgive myself for the past, all of the past, and to begin to create a culture of compassion and creativity as a norm in all i do. 

14. to fall deeply, madly in love with people. the ones in my life now and the ones that will soon be entering it.

15. sushi, a lot of sushi

16. to not be defensive and fear conversations. to understand that every interaction in my life is a blessing. That truly everyone is conspiring on my behalf for a richer, healthier, loving life. 

17. to plant a tree for Sam in my parents new yard

18. to accept a compliment

19. to become an oxygen lover, and have a new sense of American Spirit. 

20. become a local

21. have all different crews meet and create a larger crew

22. tattoo extension

23. allow the gifts to flow in my life. I am ready to receive.

24. pair of orange TOMS....its time i become hip

25. passport

26. space to entertain, create, cook, laugh

27. be a witness to my friends dreams come true, and in return allow them to witness mine. 

28. endless supply supporter

29. become involved with 2012 campaign, focusing primarily on the new voters

30. bills paid on time, and have a rhythm 

31. to fall more in love 

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NOW that is what I am talking about!!!!!

Happy September Peeps!!!

xoxo KnM

shifting into new gears

it has been a trip these last few weeks. the days melting and merging into one another. i have traveled across 4 states, thousands of miles, camping in the mountains for 9 days and now headed out on another adventure Sunday for yet again another week. Seems it has been a fun filled summer, and that is true, it is however been exhausting. Pouring energy into adventures that have given me more reason to be alone. to focus on my life, my needs, my life.

A year ago I would have jumped on any chance to have endless adventures and would have expressed endless excitement for exploring the world around me. Now these days all i want is, normalcy.

Normalcy for me would be routine. Work. Play. Friends. Family. Laughter. My day to be filled with what needs to be done, getting it done, and the joys of surprise wiggled in. I would have a sense of being busy and feeling delighted every night with what i accomplished.

Boredom doesn't work for me, and routine can create a sense of boredom, so I re-define my definition. I want to be creatively challenged. To feel inspired with what I do, and knowing what i am doing inspires not just others but ME. I want to get out in the world feeling purpose driven and creatively inspired.

This is what I am about. This is how I want my life to be seen by others. This is my mantra, the song of my heart. 
-be on purpose with everything you do. 
-forgive yourself for being hurtful, careless towards others and especially yourself. no need to change the people around you, focus on you. 
-call a friend or make it a point to reach out when your having a dark night of the soul
-surround yourself with people that 'have your back' kinda love 
-trust yourself, that is the only validation needed 
-ask for help
-laugh out loud
-be vulnerable 
-make new friends but keep the old....no one is silver or gold, we just are.
-realize that we have no expiration date. It is a constant reality that you have this moment, this moment alone. 
This is my to be list, formally my to do list.
-i am loving, living, and thriving.
-i have an amazingly delicious job, being myself, creative and brilliant
-i love being with my friends that lift me up, support me, and respect me, and I am the mirror 
-"got your back" love is a norm
-seeing my mom and dad and my beautiful sisters at least 4 times a year. 
-living in a place that is creative, inspiring, spacious, and welcoming
-always taking care of my needs and heart
-come from a place of compassion, knowing nothing is broken, so nothing needs to be fixed.
-greet every morning with a HUGE thank you and falling asleep in a grateful way.


And so it is, and so i let it be, and so it is.

be good to you today, and while your at it, be good to you everyday.

KnM

a Kristin fortune cookie for you

remembering that no matter where i am, no matter how I feel, no matter if i believe there is not enough for me, i can be reminded it is all bullshit. I am here on purpose. you are here on purpose, and we get to choooooose to be in love!

good day of love to you
KnM

check in

been awhile.

had so much to say and yet, so little. I am happy, in a calm, serene way.  Some days i want to crawl in a ball and be alone, surrendering into my day, and being quiet in my joy. Other days I want to groove like a soul train dancer, laughing a massive belly laugh and engaging with whomever I can.

the soundtrack has changed more than i could have imagined. live music serves my soul more than anything else, It always has been where i find myself to be most alive, most happy. and instead of stadiums or clubs, i am enjoying music in living rooms and cafes. connecting with the music, the people, the environment on a first name basis. High fives and side hugs. Connecting and contact sharing. It's as if I was made to network, who knew?

the people have become silhouettes of people I once had cups or pints of life with. the qualities of the crew in my life has shifted from friends of my youth growing into peeps that i will have in my future. i am creating a posse, a crew, an entourage of absolute potential. And I'm being mirrored in every conversation, called to be a greater better me, and above all i am being loved unconditionally.

the lesson has been amazing. no matter where i go, there i am. the 'everythings' of life are always present and that is incredible and interesting to take a bite out of.  my parents will still be my parents, all issues and love will always be until they change. my sisters will always be my sisters. available and willing, loving and compassionate.

the brilliance when i got it, i GOT it. and what a Got that was and is that i Got, hahah.
---Some people only know how to say Yes, they live from a place of Yes. Always wanting to serve. Then there are people that don't know how to HEAR no. They expect to always get and have and hear what they want with minimal compromise, and massive manipulation. SO i am here to hear what needs to be heard and be clear when I say yes or when i need to say no.

so i am discovering my passionate truth, and so far so good.

KnM

Location! Location!! Location!!!

doesn't matter where i am, or where you are. we are, where we are, and it's perfect!!!-KnM

Life's Fondue

days and weeks have melted into a big heaping bowl of processed cheese fondue. the kind that sticks to the pot, the roof of your mouth, and never seems to keep its heat.  I'm dipping possibilities into processes. seems the desire i have for sustenance is not giving me much substance.  or maybe substance for sustenance. either way I am experiencing a feeling that I am all to familiar with. Emotions and feelings that i wish to experience as a memory.

a dark day of the soul, nothing to worry about, or concern myself with. These are the days that lead to absolute Light and Discovery. These are the moments that I will look back on and be grateful that I had the courage to be real with myself and feel what needs to be felt. Sometimes the fear, lack, disappointment shows up in our life so we can get clear on what we really want. I change that statement....Its not sometimes its all the time. All experiences give us the absolute clarity to see what we can have, create, embody. Seems i have put on my foggy goggles today.

so what to do now?

be quiet...unplug...listen...and allow the glory of this life reveal itself to me.  laugh...feel...cry...and allow the true essence of who I am become more alive.  create...evaluate...demonstrate... and allow the brilliance that I am wake the F up. call...text...update...and allow it all to be from and for Love.

this is my blah blah blah blog for the day.....

maybe its time to find a new fondue recipe?

keep dipping

KnM

hungry

hungry for...

1. attention

2. love

3. food

4. friendship

5. interaction

6. communication

7. compassion

8. gratitude

9. rhythm

10. sass

11. surprises

12. flirting

13. conversation

14. excitement

15. satisfaction

16. fulfillment

17. music

18. laughter

19. creativity

20. results

21. release

22. forgiveness

23. healing

24. education

25. purpose

26. abundance

27. massage

28. prosperity

29. beauty

30. family

Is what I'm hungry for available as a combo? am i hungry because I feel empty? experiencing gluttony?

or is it what I have, so desiring it makes sense because i Know it's available?

we all feel hunger, physically, mentally, spiritually....the pains can cause us to become cranky, loopy, low energy, silly, intolerable.

my mission- Feed My Soul....Feed My Mind....Feed My Body.....

starting to feel full

KnM